Let's talk 'bout my dream

being adult is not as easy as it looks like..
It seems quite terrible..

but,.. mature is one process on the way we grow.. we can't avoid this fact nor can stay as children forever..
writing this one.. reminding me of Peter pan.. a child who lived in Neverland..

It hard, u know, to keep our memory of childhood in our mind-as the Peter pan did-while the time always ticking..
through one time to another time.. however, it really worst if you did not try it..
In my childhood memories.. I still remember bout my dream after I became adult..
like.. thought about ambition of searching any job, which I would rather to take..
the first job I could think of was an architect. It happened when I was five. Make a lot of plans about how my future's home would be... how bigger it would.. and many other things..

It's really fun... I enjoy everything I've done that time...

^_^

Forever & Always

Once upon a time I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
We caught onto something, I hold on to the night
You looked me in the eye and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding cause it seems to me
This thing is breaking down we almost never speak
I don’t feel welcome anymore, baby what happened please tell me
Cause one second it was perfect and now you’re half way out the door

[Chorus]
And I stare at the phone and he still hasn’t called
And you feel so low you can’t feel nothin at all
And you flash back to when he said forever and always
Ohh ohhh
And it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always


Was I out of line did I say something way too honest
That made you run and hide like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes; thought I knew you for a minute
now I’m not so sure
So here’s to everything coming down to nothing
Here’s to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going, thought I knew for a minute
but I don’t anymore

[Chorus]
And I stare at the phone and he still hasn’t called
And you feel so low you can’t feel nothin at all
And you flash back to when he said forever and always
Ohh ohhh
And it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

You didn’t mean it baby, I don’t think so
Ohhh ohhhh

Oh back up, baby back up, did you forget everything
back up, baby back up, did you forget everything





[Chorus]
Cause it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
ohhh
I stare at the phone and he still hasn’t called
And you feel so low you can’t feel nothin at all
And you flash back to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn’t mean it baby, you said forever and always

dreaming bout Aurora

perfect woman in beautiful wedding gown

prewedding photography

head accessories

 

prewedding photography

 

hand accessories

 

simple and white

 

When I slept that night.. I dream bout princess Aurora.. beauty.. a clever princess...

Then.. I dream bout my future.. and I realize..

That's all... almost impossible in my life..

Handsome prince..

Beautiful castle..

Wonderful fairies..

It was all just bullshit...

> <

senin besok dah testing..... bentar lagi klas 3 dunk... ^_^

It's just like that time...

I'm No Different From You

People just look at me

Look enough to stare

not noticing the inside of me

They just look at the clothes I wear

They don't know how I feel

They think I'm always glad

But there's something they don't no

I'm the one who's feeling sad

They think I always win

but really I always loose

they think my life is so great

but they couldn't stay one day in my shoes

You may think I'm strong

You may think I'm tough

but you have no idea my life is so rough

every time I'm in my room

you'll see water go down my eyes

you'll ask me what's wrong

I'll put on a fake discies

people say that I am to good to get hurt

but I'm just like everyone else

I wish that could work

everybody says I look to good

and I'm just a tease

but I cry my eyes out then put on a cheeze

when love came into my life

surprisingly that was something I feared

I never thought I'd be feeling like this in all my 16 years

yes I've been in love

yes I got hurt

you would of thought all she do is fight & flirt

but you are wrong about everything

I was wrong at it to

now I see love's agony

and what it can do

that's why I'm here

to throw away this stress & strife

to start all over

maybe a new life

but people over here

is the same as over there

they just look at your appearance

and the style of your hair

never to look in the inside of me

never to care

I was brought into this world

realizing life's not fair

so if you really think.......

I look to good

I dress to nice

I never get hurt

I'll never stay by a guy side

and the word love

I can't describe

your wrong about that too

I'm just like everyone else around me I'm just like you.......

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